the back door

over the years i have had this issue with closets. as a teen i would stand in front of my closet and cry i had nothing to wear! confess - we all did. well the past couple of months have found me doing the same thing - even at age 33. and i'm sure most of you still have those moments too! i have worked really hard the last year and a half to lose some weight and be healthy. kind of forced by my doctor but really a way to just live my best. well the weight finally came off this winter and i dropped 12 pounds!! yippee!!!!!!! but that really did leave me with nothing to wear:) i have done some shopping to no avail. nothing ever fit right or just didn't look nice on me. the styles out there are all very different right now. but after a meltdown on tuesday night i told dear friend i was going nuts. she recommended the dress barn. she looks way too cute these days so i took her advice and since princess had a play date wednesday after school i took off. now....i had a bla...

okay...hubby at hoosierhappenings decided to post on my wanting a tattoo. well, the post was about other things, but he referenced my desire towards the end. how can i not respond to that challenge? for some of you out there, this might be a bit of a surprise, but here it goes.... when i worked at spring hill camps i was all about getting a tattoo. i wanted one on my ankle. just a simple jesus fish. i was kind of getting into the christian-grundge-hippy thing going on. i even went to the tattoo parlor with my friend to get hers. at that point i was on the fence. i knew my parents would totally flip out and well, frankly the fear of the pain kept me away that night. to be honest i don't really know what my fascination was/is with it. i'm not necessarily opposed to ones of taste that are small and discreet. carly on idol - a bit too much for me. every so often i get in the mood again. now i call it basic rebellion. there are those times when i just want to scream th...

so this has been one crazy week around here. i've been on the go all week long. last night i went to bed with a lot on my mind. but one thing not on my mind was an earthquake!! yes folks...at 5:37 this morning i woke up for some reason. then i realized my bed was shaking and the lanterns on the dresser were rattling. i looked at the clock and assumed a train was on it's way. we live right next to the tracks and on occasion there is a train around this time of morning. i laid there for a while. the dog moaned a little and mapboy started coughing and stirring in his bed. i prayed the train would be quick and not fully wake him b/c once he is awake he is awake and 5:37 is too early for that guy! everything continued to shake. by now i'm thinking i don't really hear a train at all. shouldn't i hear it by now? and wait a minute - our bed sways, not shakes with a train. and then there was the issue of the lanterns. they don't ever rattle. hmm...well it...

i am an idol junkie! i love idol for some reason. last night we put the kids to bed and enjoyed a romantic dinner of baked mosticolli in front of the fireplace, and of course, idol. it was their big give back show. i was just kind of impressed. i found myself thinking several thoughts all in different directions 1. do all of these celebrities really care?? we decided bono definitely does and for the most part so do the rest. i was watching reese witherspoon interview a family and how they don't have a home or something like that and i thought why doesn't she just buy them a decent home? i do think most of them care and i genuinely feel for the people they interviewed - i don't mean this in a cynical sort of way. 2. how do you break the cycle? there are so many families hurting and it just pours over to the next generation. how do we end it???? is there anything we can do to turn the trend around? 3. who are these celebrities? i have to confess i didn't kn...

okay, so i've been meaning to post this since monday night. but better late then never right? princess was at grandma's still when we all sat down to dinner. i was busy serving up the food and could here mapboy talking about something. i confess i wasn't paying much attention until i heard this "and then someone put the fire out and the police put them in a car" hmmm....what is he talking about? so i stop and ask him to tell me again. he started talking about the olympic torch in france and how someone ran up and threw water on it and then they put the guy in the bus and the police were all there. i was a little confused and hubby could tell. he said he'd fill me in later and prayed for dinner. now, i've never been one to really enjoy the news or keep up on it too much, but when my 7 year old son knows more about current world events it is quite sad. i guess i need to pay more attention to him. he does know what he is talking about. i will say whe...

princess was invited to spend the afternoon/evening with grandma today! it was a nice surprise for me and of course she was thrilled to accept the invitation. after i dropped her off i started pondering the reaction mapboy was going to have. i had formulated quite a lesson in sharing grandma and that life isn't fair byt the time i got back home. much to my suprise (and a bit of pride!) he got off the bus in a great mood and was actually thrilled for his sister to have some girl grandma time! when we got back in the house i told him i would love to take him out for a special afterschool snack. he picked the local coffee shop for a smoothie and cookie and since it was beautiful we walked. it was so much fun. we just enjoyed talking about his day and all the events of school. i heard about his friends and the games they invented for recess. we played checkers and he came from behind to beat me fair and square. it was great! we returned home and he set to work on his homework...

a few weeks ago my dear friend got to fly off to hawaii! i was very jealous, but let her go anyways. they actually flew into san francisco and spent the night. she was telling me about getting to their hotel in the middle of the night and those big hills. while she was telling me about this i had one image fill my mind and it stayed there for a few hours. fast forward to today....my parents have just returned from about 6 weeks in florida! they had a great time and i think might have even been willing to stay a little longer. but i was talking with my dad today and he asked when they could see the kiddos. he does love his grandkids, which of course i love!! but he followed that with "we have a little gift for you!" do you know what? the exact same image that i talked about above filled my mind again! you see, growing up, my dad and a lot of times my mom traveled for business. if it was just dad we would wake up in the morning to the peanuts on the counter! i loved...