so in an effort to keep trying to find ways to cut our budget i've decided i need to let my hair grow out. this has been quite an ordeal for me. i've never really had a hair style. i just had the shoulder length layer thing going on. but my sweet sis-in-law talked me into trying a cute style and frankly i love it! easy to do, and trendy and fun. but it requires a hair cut every 5-6 weeks. well, that adds up pretty fast. i use to go every 3-4 months.
so i've decided that is one way i can help cut our budget. but, how one earth do i grow this out without looking incredibly weird. i have it shorter in back and angled to my face. once the bottom back startst to grow out it flips out - no matter what i do to it...argh....i just feel frumpy and weird.
then i realized that it reveals my heart. it reveals to me how much i do care what others think of me. that i want to look pretty. that i don't want people to give me odd looks.
i've also decided that i don't need to buy any new clothes. this is interesting because i gave so many of my things away over the past year. most didn't fit right and some i just didn't really like. but now...i stand at my closet and go..."hmmmm" it appears i don't have a lot to match the other things in my closet. i love fall, but this year i'm going to be looking forward to winter, when i can wear a big sweatshirt and jeans and noone will know it is the same sweatshirt all week because i will have a big old winter coat on over it!!
it really isn't that bad, but i learned 2 things about myself in this. okay, maybe 3. 1.) i do not have the ability to mix and match clothes - it doesn't come natural to me at all! 2.) while everyone else seems to find great things at goodwill - i don't! and 3.) reveals once again how much i must care about what others think of me....
so all this to say, that while i'm feeling like the floods keep coming in our life, God must be trying to prune me of my pride. you'd think i'd have learned that over the last 30 some years He's been trying to teach me......
i try hard to be frugal and still be able to buy things - but i've learned my lesson. it doesn't work for me!! i never find the clearance items. i never find the right color of shirt to match the one pair of pants that does fit at good will. i never find the good grocery deals....argh....
pride - it all stems from pride!!!!!!!!
so i've decided that is one way i can help cut our budget. but, how one earth do i grow this out without looking incredibly weird. i have it shorter in back and angled to my face. once the bottom back startst to grow out it flips out - no matter what i do to it...argh....i just feel frumpy and weird.
then i realized that it reveals my heart. it reveals to me how much i do care what others think of me. that i want to look pretty. that i don't want people to give me odd looks.
i've also decided that i don't need to buy any new clothes. this is interesting because i gave so many of my things away over the past year. most didn't fit right and some i just didn't really like. but now...i stand at my closet and go..."hmmmm" it appears i don't have a lot to match the other things in my closet. i love fall, but this year i'm going to be looking forward to winter, when i can wear a big sweatshirt and jeans and noone will know it is the same sweatshirt all week because i will have a big old winter coat on over it!!
it really isn't that bad, but i learned 2 things about myself in this. okay, maybe 3. 1.) i do not have the ability to mix and match clothes - it doesn't come natural to me at all! 2.) while everyone else seems to find great things at goodwill - i don't! and 3.) reveals once again how much i must care about what others think of me....
so all this to say, that while i'm feeling like the floods keep coming in our life, God must be trying to prune me of my pride. you'd think i'd have learned that over the last 30 some years He's been trying to teach me......
i try hard to be frugal and still be able to buy things - but i've learned my lesson. it doesn't work for me!! i never find the clearance items. i never find the right color of shirt to match the one pair of pants that does fit at good will. i never find the good grocery deals....argh....
pride - it all stems from pride!!!!!!!!
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