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tired...oh so tired...

those of you who know me know that night time is not by best time! in fact, i'd sleep 20 of the 24 hours if i could! and i do not like being woken up!!

for the past 2-3 months, mapboy has been up nightly. sometimes 2-3 times a night. each time he calls me in to tell me he has had a bad dream. well, i pray with him and usually he goes back to sleep, me too...


but lately, that hasn't been working. he gets himself all worked into a tizzy and cries and calls for me. i'm really tired and have been sick with something for the past 3-4 weeks. it is wearing on me. last thursday i had had it. i mean, come on child! there is nothing in your room other than the mess you make each day. i was frustrated and told him he would not be spending the next night at grandma's. well of course that made him more mad, but i turned on his music and lamp and left the room.


when i got back to bed, God convicted me that my child was scared for some reason and i needed to have a little more compassion. then He gently reminded me of my childhood and being scared and how my mom would sit by my bed and rub my back. i quickly realized she most likely wanted to be in her bed too. so i felt bad and apologized the next day. i told him that i should discipline him for being scared. he said, "mom, when i'm scared, i'm scared." hmm...i also realized that if anything every happened that scared him, he needed to know he could come to us.


so that leaves me with the now what? how do i deal with this nightly issue? he is exhausted, i'm exhausted, and hubby is exhausted. we have discussed the dreams, but we mostly wonder if he isn't just waking up and then hearing sounds or seeing shadows and freaking out. of course he reminds us he only has these dreams in his room. which is honestly true. so i've prayed over his room and over him....but we are still up - last night 3 times. then ironically, my body woke up and i started to get out of bed to go to his room when hubby said he hadn't heard him call. geesh....


i did stay a little more patient last night, but....i'm tired...and would sure like to figure this out...

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TWitmer said…
Oh Chris...I didn't realize. I am praying for you (right now)and for Jack. Wish I had words of wisdom...love you friend. Hang in there.
September 21, 2009 at 8:58 PM
Kori said…
Sweet boy! Perhaps you could have him memorize an appropriate scripture that he can recite when he wakes up scared. I know there are times that I wake up scared even at 34 years of age and I sing Jesus loves me quietly to myself and it helps immensly to bring my mind back to truth and safety! Will be praying for peaceful nights for you all my friend! Oh...and I updated my blog just for you! =) Sorry it is pics you have already seen on facebook!
September 22, 2009 at 2:50 PM
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