as i began to ponder all that i had learned about myself in 2020 i found amazing places of adaptability, leadership, and change. those are great strengths and proved to be valuable in 2020, however those same things left me feeling a bit out of sorts, unanchored. i know my life needs to find some grounding again. i told my husband yesterday and a friend today that i am not looking forward to 2021. no big plans. no vacations to look forward to. several things are already cancelled and leaving some voids at work. but really...there is nothing like being an incredible social person and realizing 2021 has a looming sense of loneliness when my girl takes on college. with this in mind, i knew i needed to find some ways to reclaim myself; putting space into my life filled with things that bring joy and peace. there are things i need to continue changing physically, emotionally, spiritually, and relationally, yet discipline is not in my skill set. it freaks me out. constrains me lead
well....here we are. wrapping up 2020. it was quite a year, wasn't it? for the past couple of weeks i've been taking some time to reflect on my word for 2020 and how it shaped the year. the ways it changed me. the ways i failed it. they ways i found a reset. there is no point in rehashing the events of 2020. i mean, it was a year no one will quickly forget, but i had no idea all the ways 2020 would force some resets in my life. i had wanted to reset my spiritual life. that proved interesting when we found ourselves at home on Sunday mornings instead of in church. it proved interesting as church community was displaced. but God... He so clearly showed me that spiritual health happens outside of church walls on Sunday mornings. i experienced growth as i was challenged to seek out how God would want me to respond to Covid, personal rights, the election, racism, hatred, and division. i grew in different ways and found myself resetting my faith and aligning closer to J