as i began to ponder all that i had learned about myself in 2020 i found amazing places of adaptability, leadership, and change. those are great strengths and proved to be valuable in 2020, however those same things left me feeling a bit out of sorts, unanchored. i know my life needs to find some grounding again. i told my husband yesterday and a friend today that i am not looking forward to 2021. no big plans. no vacations to look forward to. several things are already cancelled and leaving some voids at work. but really...there is nothing like being an incredible social person and realizing 2021 has a looming sense of loneliness when my girl takes on college. with this in mind, i knew i needed to find some ways to reclaim myself; putting space into my life filled with things that bring joy and peace. there are things i need to continue changing physically, emotionally, spiritually, and relationally, yet discipline is not in my skill set. it freaks me out. constrains me lead