i have gotten in the habit of choosing a word for the year. i've done words like change, love, joy, discover, and last year chose to go different and focus on what i called the power of 10. i basically failed at that. this past year has been interesting to say the least. it has been a struggle for me in many ways. i've kept those struggles a secret with only a few beloved friends. but it hasn't made them any less real. any less life sucking. last week i started pondering this whole word idea. i had a few swirling around in my head, but decided to ask my friends on facebook for some of their thoughts. what words would they choose for me? some of their suggestions were weird - like bisquit? others were really pretty good: thrive, intentional, strive, exuberance, steadfast, faith, and many more. i let them roll around in my head and heart. i even had settled on one, or so i thought: strive. i started playing with the word. pondering it. but i kept having