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21st time

while i think i might be looking at the 21st snowfall of the season and while it seems that monday's 2 hour delay was atleast the 21st of the school year, and even though i was the 21st person in line at the license branch today that is not what this post is about!

monk and eagle have had a song out for several months now called 21st time. what a song!! when i first heard it, i had been doing a lot of soul searching about my role in the community. what really struck me is how often i disregard people. i don't really even look at the grocery clerk in the eye when i'm paying.

for awhile i was really challenged to see people how Christ did and to try and show them Christ each time i saw them. it sure does change your attitude. when i wanted to be hurried i had to slow down and smile. when i wanted to be frustrated with unruly children, i had to remember what a blessing they were and how to handle them with respect. all of these things made me, i think, a better person or atleast a better example of who God intended us all to be.

i have slowly been working my way through a book called blue like jazz. it really challenges you to think not about "church" but about life and how you live day to day for Jesus. if i live like most of us do, and frankly, how i do now, my life will not impact anyone. but if i live each day like i've been blessed by Jesus and want to share that blessing...hmm....i wonder?? if we all lived each day like that i really wonder...

while i feel like i have failed, God reminds me...even if i don't get it until the 21st time, He still wants me to get it and to be changed. so next time you see someone - smile at them!! as cliche as it sounds, you might be the only Jesus they really do see!!

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