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what do i do with this??

a few nights ago around the supper table, hubby announced we were going to have about 9 more kids. i'm not sure where he was going with this, but the kids got very interested. as the conversation went on, the kids decided they would rather live with our doctors family so they could have more siblings and catch frogs at their house. okay?!?

well, today princess had her kindergarten physical and told the doctor what they decided. he said that sounded great and finished her exam. no big deal...

until after dinner tonight...

at the table, princess told daddy that doc said they could come on out. she disappeared. when i went to find her, i found her in her room surrounded by bags filled with her favorite clothes and toys. she was packing!!!!!! i kinda giggled..okay so i laughed and didn't think much of it. i called the doc's wife and told her to get ready. when i went back upstairs she was sitting on daddy's lap just sobbing...i mean SOBBING!!!!

he had a friend waiting downstairs so i hung up the phone and picked her up. she cried for a good 20 minutes. she wants to move. she doesn't like her room. we talked for a while about what she would like to change in it and i tried to find some ways to meet her half-way on this one. i couldn't believe her incredible sobs. she can really turn on that fake cry, but this was true sobbing. i've never seen her so distressed!!!

what on earth do i do with this??!?!?!?! talk about feeling like i am a total failure as a mom. i mean the guilt is running wild through my heart and mind. what have i done wrong??? where do i go from here???

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Anonymous said…
yeah, and then how does it feel when mapboy comes in and tells dad his teases turn into lies while he's holding a very sad little girl?
March 20, 2008 at 3:46 PM
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