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...or just someone in process! i wrote several weeks ago about my motherboard exploding or imploding or whatever it is a motherboard does when she decides to stop working:) well, God has continued to specifically speak to me about lots of things, and now i'm listening, obeying, and living freely.
you see, friends, while i wasn't necessarily being naughty, i had allowed my life to get a little out of whack. summer was stressful with creating creator camp, creating journey junction, putting both creations into action, and trying to maintain some kind of order to my home. oh how i longed to sit in an open field like the picture above and just be. for me, that is drawing near to God and therefore restoring order. however, that wasn't happening at all.
then the motherboard episode kind of knocked me to my knees. God was definitely trying to get my attention and attention he got. since then He very clearly spoke to me about boundaries. i work "part-time" yet, because it is ministry and i'm paid to do it, other people often see it as full-time. they would tell you they don't, but it is when 15 people need/ask/demand something and it doesn't happen for a few days or even a week depending on the priority (obviously from my end). with that pressure i'd allowed myself to put in way more hours. in talking with my dear friend, and in reading my devotional, God smacked me upside the head that my priorities were out of whack. i longed for the days when i could just be home with my kids, no pressure, time to make cookies, time to play games, time to clean house, etc. sadly, all of those joys were stresses because of lack of time. amazingly, after a few days without a laptop to whip out at 6pm to "just finish a few things" i had time to do some of those things. we could read together, play together, watch tv together, etc...
okay - now that i had my evenings back, i needed to reclaim some day time. i started at 25, subtracted sunday hours - 7, then subtracted monday and tuesday hours -14, i only need to work 4 more hours in the week. knowing that i like to set things up on friday's i planned to go in 1/2 day then and realized the extra hour or 2 will happen some evenings or on a saturday. wowzers:) i could take 2 whole days off!
the first week i was joyous - and then i started filling my 2 days off....one was totally what i needed but the rest was kind of just filling the days. realizing i still wasn't home AT ALL...i surrendered again to God's specific prompting. we were arguing while i was grilling, He burnt my arm and I gave in!
so while i am still looking to use those days to connect with friends on a friendship level, work in the kids classrooms, and clean house, i'm also using them to connect with God deeper and rediscover all the passions he gave me outside of ministry!
ahhh.....i just told my dear friend this morning - i feel so HAPPY!!!!!!!!

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