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what is a mom to do?

this is really much more of a vent for me, a mom, giving herself a time out.

for whatever reason, mapboy has an extremely hard time dealing with life. i don't quite understand it, well, except for the fact that it is his sinful nature. he can be all sweet and cuddly and the next minute he is screaming and yelling at anyone near by. it is so frustrating at times b/c you can't even get him calmed down to deal with the issue at hand..then he is on to the next one, and the next one and so on. by the time he is calmed down even i have a hard time remembering what the initial issue is.

this afternoon has been one of those days and frankly, i'm so tired of being in constant battle. i have tried to speak calmly only to find myself raising my voice over his to be met with him telling me i'm yelling at him and he starts crying even more. it is just hard to try to help him or explain the situation with him crying and yelling about it.

as i write this , he is standing in the corner. quiet....for the first time in almost an hour. i'm praying for divine wisdom. i just don't understand him....is it a boy thing? is it an age thing? is it just a sin issue? or is there something wrong with him???

most of the time (or atleast 1/2 the time) he is such a sweet boy that is kind and helpful. he speaks about God and how much he loves him. studies his maps and nature books. plays with his sister....but the rest of the time....i've yet to figure that out...

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