yesterday we signed up for school. i took the kiddos in and filled out paperwork, signed up to help, and chatted with the beloved principal. there were some changes to be made. it didn't take very long....and in a few short days off they will go on the big yellow bus.
so last night i definitely had my lowest mommy moment. as i sat up praying and trying to sort out everything i was struck - well, i should say God told me - to stop wishing on them. huh?? well, i love them, really i do, but as a full time mommy i often wish them to grandmas, or wish them to a different room than under my feet, or wish them to school.
i took out the albums i lovingly put together. as i flipped through i saw them grow before my eyes. it happens so fast. one day mapboy was this tiny little thing with a knick on his nose, the next he was a chunky, and i mean chunky, baby! he rolled super fast because crawling meant dragging his belly around. then he was a cute toddler that talked and talked and quickly fell in love with maps, birds, trees, all things nature.
then there was princess...she entered the world five weeks early and under 5 pounds. healthy but fed mostly through a tube. she was tiny and alive and precious. we never thought we'd survive her first 9 months...she screamed nonstop. literally! ear infection after ear infection for a good 4 years. then they mostly stopped. by age 2 she was all things girl - princess, pink, frills, etc....
and i love them both. they are both different, both special, and both shortly leaving this house to spend 8 hours in the school down the street. wowzers...time sure does fly.
so i asked forgiveness for those wishes. oh yes, i understand we moms do need some time to ourselves...but i have a new perspective of enjoying them. they were a gift given to me to cherish and pour into and that is what i will do.
so last night i definitely had my lowest mommy moment. as i sat up praying and trying to sort out everything i was struck - well, i should say God told me - to stop wishing on them. huh?? well, i love them, really i do, but as a full time mommy i often wish them to grandmas, or wish them to a different room than under my feet, or wish them to school.
i took out the albums i lovingly put together. as i flipped through i saw them grow before my eyes. it happens so fast. one day mapboy was this tiny little thing with a knick on his nose, the next he was a chunky, and i mean chunky, baby! he rolled super fast because crawling meant dragging his belly around. then he was a cute toddler that talked and talked and quickly fell in love with maps, birds, trees, all things nature.
then there was princess...she entered the world five weeks early and under 5 pounds. healthy but fed mostly through a tube. she was tiny and alive and precious. we never thought we'd survive her first 9 months...she screamed nonstop. literally! ear infection after ear infection for a good 4 years. then they mostly stopped. by age 2 she was all things girl - princess, pink, frills, etc....
and i love them both. they are both different, both special, and both shortly leaving this house to spend 8 hours in the school down the street. wowzers...time sure does fly.
so i asked forgiveness for those wishes. oh yes, i understand we moms do need some time to ourselves...but i have a new perspective of enjoying them. they were a gift given to me to cherish and pour into and that is what i will do.
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