i've been in a bit of a funk lately. not quite myself. there are a lot of reasons that i won't disclose here, but i'm working through them.
as thanksgiving approached i really asked God to search my heart. boy, it stinks when He really does, doesn't it? He found all sorts of things to call me on. it was good though - real good.
this has been a fall that has probably tugged on my heart the most. i have experienced hurt by others and i have experienced hurt for others. both hurt - just differently. but it is good - real good.
it has been somewhat of a lonely season. i've missed the fun of friendships and fun girlfriend days. but it is good.
it has been a season of blessings - just needing to look a little further than normal to find them. and they have been good - really quite good.
i have had several times in my life where i felt lost and needed direction. times when i would call my dad or seek out friends. this time i guess i need to do it alone. but that's okay. it is still good.
you see, God still loves me and He has a perfect plan for me. and He knows exactly where i am even when i can't find myself. as God searched my heart, i found myself confessing. i also found myself refusing to confess some because i know i'm right. i have a feeling i'd better just confess them....and it is all good.
there is a great song sung by Martina McBride that you've been listening to. if you didn't listen, play it again.
so yes, in all of this....God is good, and frankly, if God is good then so is life - real good!
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