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the cabin...

okay, when hubby and i were dating briefly, we discussed dreams of one day having a retreat type home. he would talk about having a cabin and i would get all giddy. i mean...a cabin on the shores of a lake or ocean!! talk about heaven on earth. well, then i heard him, i mean truly heard him. his idea of cabin location was, well a little different. a wooded lot in the middle of
nowhere. and close to home. geesh...who wants to drive 20 minutes to the middle of nowhere and sit with just trees to look at.

i've come a long way, and while i still dream of a lake retreat i can totally appreciate the cabin in the woods a little closer to home. our kids would love having the land to romp on and if i could curl up with a book - fine by me. kind of?! in my mind, this really isn't close to being a reality so all the talk is okay.

but a few weeks ago, a friend of hubby's found a cabin not too far from here. it apparently needs a lot of help, but hey, hubby restores things right??? so all i have heard about it his cabin for sale. what dump it is now, but how cool it could look.

since hubby left his job, i've thought a lot about finances and hear my mom's words coming out of my own mouth, "we don't have money for that." thanks, mom, for teaching me those words, and for teaching me to just smile and trust the hubby when he ignores that statement. so, one evening we were in the car with our niece. he was talking about the cabin and i was sighing and giving him my famous line. however, he had already done some financial thinking and was throwing it back in my face.

then he says, "if i make xxthousand this year, can i buy the cabin?" then, i say, "yes!" WHAT??!!!!? i did not just say that. and there was a witness.....so now hubby reminds me with each job how close he is to that amount! argh....

so as i told one friend, i'm not sure how to pray. that he doesn't make that amount, because frankly, we could really use the income, or do i pray that someone buys it first? or do i pray that God knows and that we honestly seek Him in this process????? or is this one of those things that people want to say God doesn't really care about???

either way - i have taken to heart the verse about being slow to speak!!!!!! i have learned my lesson!

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