...what on earth have we done? this is crazy. at times i feel like it is exactly right, other times i feel overwhelmed and out of sync. i think those feelings rise to the surface when i can't find certain comforts. or when i miss saying hi to my neighbor over our fence.
...i drove by the old house for the first time today. i thought i'd be sad, but not really. then i noticed on the next drive by that the curtains were pulled down. ugh....hubby really did rub off on me with window treatments.
...princess seems sad again at bedtime. it is funny to me that she misses her closets when those were what always scared her at night. i guess there is comfort in the sameness, even if it is scarey. she did better though...only a few times of calling me.
...these stupid lady bugs might get the best of me. why do they bother me so? the house is completely torn up and dust is everywhere, wallpaper is falling from the walls, stuff is in boxes, yet it is the lady bugs that make it all feel gross. go away precious lady bugs...please oh please just go away!
...you know, i thought i'd actually really miss the old house. i remember going down the steps that last time and thinking, "i'm going to miss this" yet oddly i don't. i wish i could have walked through it one last time, but honestly my home is whereever my family is. i am ready to make this house our home, but in many ways, it is just already home!
...i'm tired of construction people in my house! thankful they are working, but tired of hammers and scrapes and the smell of mud!! didn't we just do this with the old kitchen. yep....but this too will end and i will love the finished project and this will all be a distant memory.
...we are blessed with so many incredible friends. i could not have made it through the move without them. and now people are calling and asking to bring us meals. i'm so thankful - it is a huge relief. i hope that i am able to bless people like i've been blessed.
...princess went right to sleep tonight!! i think she has accepted this as her room!
...today i asked hubby if we were going to all be okay. i'm not sure why i asked him that. i guess i needed to snuggle in and hear from him that he is okay with all of this. okay with the crazy decisions, okay with the mess, okay with us....you know just okay! he pulled me tighter and said yes....i really love him.
...i'm trying really hard to enjoy this chaos. while it seems like we will never get settled i know we will. that in a few months we will look back and barely remember the mess. atleast i hope it only takes a few more months!
...we are supposed to get snow. alot of it. not sure what to make of that and country living. guess we will find out soon enough.
...i drove by the old house for the first time today. i thought i'd be sad, but not really. then i noticed on the next drive by that the curtains were pulled down. ugh....hubby really did rub off on me with window treatments.
...princess seems sad again at bedtime. it is funny to me that she misses her closets when those were what always scared her at night. i guess there is comfort in the sameness, even if it is scarey. she did better though...only a few times of calling me.
...these stupid lady bugs might get the best of me. why do they bother me so? the house is completely torn up and dust is everywhere, wallpaper is falling from the walls, stuff is in boxes, yet it is the lady bugs that make it all feel gross. go away precious lady bugs...please oh please just go away!
...you know, i thought i'd actually really miss the old house. i remember going down the steps that last time and thinking, "i'm going to miss this" yet oddly i don't. i wish i could have walked through it one last time, but honestly my home is whereever my family is. i am ready to make this house our home, but in many ways, it is just already home!
...i'm tired of construction people in my house! thankful they are working, but tired of hammers and scrapes and the smell of mud!! didn't we just do this with the old kitchen. yep....but this too will end and i will love the finished project and this will all be a distant memory.
...we are blessed with so many incredible friends. i could not have made it through the move without them. and now people are calling and asking to bring us meals. i'm so thankful - it is a huge relief. i hope that i am able to bless people like i've been blessed.
...princess went right to sleep tonight!! i think she has accepted this as her room!
...today i asked hubby if we were going to all be okay. i'm not sure why i asked him that. i guess i needed to snuggle in and hear from him that he is okay with all of this. okay with the crazy decisions, okay with the mess, okay with us....you know just okay! he pulled me tighter and said yes....i really love him.
...i'm trying really hard to enjoy this chaos. while it seems like we will never get settled i know we will. that in a few months we will look back and barely remember the mess. atleast i hope it only takes a few more months!
...we are supposed to get snow. alot of it. not sure what to make of that and country living. guess we will find out soon enough.
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good luck with those lady bugs! i think they may be around now that you are country living!
i'm sure the snow plows will find you! :) you have that nice new bridge at the end of your road that they need to keep clear.
i love you friend! you're doing great and i just can't wait to come see your new HOME. :)
"it's gonna be alright!"